And to make it worse, it's all in Japanese!!! T__T
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I suddenly seem to realize that most blogs out there that are more of the 'journal'-ish types are filled with posts on the author's self-discovery.... or the quest for it. I can't help but wonder if it's really that easy!
I mean, here I am. Right now, almost nothing's going the way I want it to. I'm feeling dreadful and am beginning to wonder if I am indeed good enough for anything I do! And to add fuel to the already ravaging fires in my heart, my own family seems to have given up hope on me. Now, I might sound a little more dramatic. But this is exactly how it feels and seems right now. And I wonder... have I discovered what I really want? Is a PhD in Physics my all time goal? Or was it just something that's really beyond my scope of things?
For all those folks out there who talk as though self-discovery comes right at you like a lightning out on the blue, I'll let you know; you're wrong!
Self discovery is one of the toughest things one can set out to do. And I'm not even sure if I'll find out anything at the end of all things!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
It really is very taxing being an early twenty-something with four score relatives around, trying to avoid marriage talks! And when a very blank wall is looming ahead of you, career-wise, consider yourself doomed! Dooomed I tell you! DOOMED!
But I am not going down without a fight, my dear readers! Oh no! While my parents and the relative bunch are groom-hunting, I shall give my all to finding myself a good lab somewhere in this wide world that will be kind enough to take me in! Oh yes!
Hmmmm.... coming to think of it, I guess I'll let the folks at home do all the work! I, for sure, am the female three dimensional version of Shikamaru from Naruto.... It's all so bothersome! Too bad I'm not a genius like him! Heh...
P.S. I'm even thinking of taking up a job in some research lab! I'm desperate! T_T
Thursday, May 20, 2010
There's nothing more I'd love to do now than to just let it all go and be content.... too bad I cannot do that. Too bad suddenly, everything is rushing up to me! Ai Elbereth! Why the drama?! Can't we all just laugh at it and move on? Is it really such a big deal?!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Happy news people! Very happy news! I don't know how many of you are aware of the tussle that was underway between Nestle and various environmental groups over the use of palm oil in their Kit-Kat Brand. The oil used came from palm trees that were planted in place of the natural Rainforests of Indonesia. This meant that the already dwindling Orangutan population in those places would be further affected adversely. Apparently, Nestle has agreed to work towards boycotting all oil companies that indulge in deforestation.
And why this sudden change of heart, you wonder? Hmmmm.... Maybe this video link can provide an answer to that!
If only we could have Unilever do the same! It would mean a world of difference for the better for the countless animals still stuck in the testing labs! It's really sad that such a huge multi-billion dollar company still follows such ridiculously arcane methods of product testing that isn't even that accurate! I hope they change their stance soon enough... I so very fervently do!
Ah well... One can always hope for the best, right?
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
And so, the verdict is out.... IISc and NCBS have denied me access to their Labs. And so, here I stand; twenty three, moderately educated, completely useless! *sigh*
Hmmm.... this is quite interesting.... not knowing what's going to happen next!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Tomorrow, I leave for Bangalore... It's to attend yet another PhD interview and I guess I've stopped worrying about getting through or not... What will happen will happen. And I truly wish I could get away from it all for a few months. You know... like go hiking into the Silent Valley... or temple hopping in the middle of the night... or enter a Stationery shop feel the Zen that is Stationery until they kick me out... None of this Physics-shmysics!
I know a few of those souls out there are probably gasping in disbelief or nodding their heads in knowing disappointment. I'm sorry folks! My cuckoos have finally flown the nest and right now, I feel like doing things I've never done before.... like...
- Going on an expedition of some sorts.... you know... not quite the Indiana Jones types. But still, be a part of an Archeological expedition? Dig into the past? Find pieces of Time still stuck on stone walls and arcane coins? That type of thing.
- Makeup shopping. Yep. You heard it right! I know I don't tend to go overboard as far as face paint is concerned! Heck... I'm probably dumb as a door knob as far as making-up of the face goes.... Making up facts and scaring the heebidibajeebies of people? Yep... I'm an expert! I guess I've finally realized I'm a *cue gasp and dramatic silence* girl! And I tend to harbor silly girly dreams within myself. About time I indulged myself, ne?
- Write like there's no tomorrow. And this involves all sorts of literary shazaam! Prose, Poetry, random warbling... everything. I wish I could express all those things I see and feel around me into beautiful and eternal words that will move people for ages to come! Alright.... that's a little too far-fetched. But at least be able to show the kids in my street, when I'm an octogenarian, with one foot in my grave, my works.
That's it for now.... but somehow, right now, I cannot seem to be able to do any of these! Ah well... I'll find some way or the other! ;)
Sunday, May 9, 2010
It's an oddly enriching experience when one goes shopping with good friends. A special time when friends can bond together and let their friendship get stronger! Well, technically, you can also get to know their tastes and philosophies and be at war with it, leading to problems in friendship-land! But thank goodness, I've found a few friends who're just right! Like pieces in a jigsaw puzzle!
And what did we do all day, you ask?
We were hunting good cotton dress materials for the summer for one of the girls. And I should say Chennai's "HOT" index is going to soar higher once she walks around wearing those! ;)
Then, we went stationery shopping! BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!! And then there were more purchases of eatables, stationery, random bazooka, stationery..... did I mention stationery? ;)
By the time I got home, I knew I had legs somewhere.... they were carrying me around! But I'd completely lost sensation of my feet, thanks to a stand-a-thon that I was part of! :P
Aaaaaanyway, there's still certain things I need to procure to make my plan of world domination a success and that involves more stationery! Onward to the shopping districts, my minions! BOHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Finals tomorrow! But I have so much to express! AARGH.... Must wait till tomorrow afternoon! I can do it.... right? Right? RIIIIIIIIGHT???!!!! But more importantly, can you, my dearest trusty reader, stand the suspense? Hmmmm? Hmmmmm? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?
Monday, May 3, 2010
Ah.... I've my finals tomorrow and many might wonder what I'm doing, writing a blog post when I ought to be slogging my hiney off, trying to get a decent grade! Well... I'm just not feeling inspired enough!
Aaaaah... How I wish I was surrounded by people from Gintama... it would be so.... uplifting and stimulating! Running around helping people with odd jobs... being silly and still being accepted! The numerous puns nobody would understand and yet be funny! The teensie life lessons that one could learn! Oh.... and the really hot guys from Yorozu-ya, Shinsengumi and the Juoi faction! *Siiiiiiiiigh* Life's so cruel at times! :S
LOL... and yes, I've finally lost my head! I shall now go and try to cram in as much Titanium and Nano magnets into my feeble cranium as I can!
And hope everybody's having an awesome summer out there! What're your plans for the holidays, people? Let me know! =D
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Remember the last post where I had mentioned we'd taken in a stray and named her Tsume? Well... I can't bring myself to tell how glad I am that we did what we did!
She seems to have become so fond of Dad and I that one sees her eyes light up with hoy every time we walk out towards her! And this same creature was sulking around, scared and sad just last week! It's amazing what love can do to living things! It makes me so happy that I've been the reason some creature got out of depression! (And dogs undergo depression too!)
Just last week, she probably didn't have anyone to look at her kindly, let alone play with her... nobody to scratch her ears and tell her how much they love her... nobody to give her a bowl of piping hot broth (or any other form of supper) and pat her gently as she eats it all up. Simply put, she must've felt so lonely... so desperately seeking some comfort... and in she came into our house, into our hearts!
Tsume, my love! You're like a god given gift for which I am thankful! And if only everyone reading this would go out and adopt an animal from the shelter... or take in and give home to a stray, I'm sure the world would seem a much better place! :)
Saturday, May 1, 2010
"Some people are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives. Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you may win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway.
People who really want help may attack you if you help them. Help them anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway."
In a week's time, I've ridden the highest of the high and the lowest of the low!
To mark a few of the high times,
- Dad and I have decided to let the homeless dog who seems to have taken a liking to our place stay! Henceforth, she shall be known as Tsume(爪). And from what we've observed, she's been vaccinated and neutered, thanks to the ABC program that my Corporation people follow for stray and feral dogs! Let's hear it for the newest member of the family folk! :D
- Some of my closest friends are finally getting the happiness they deserve! Power to you, friends!
- I've finally managed to get rid of a lot of personal demons from my mind! I feel so much lighter and better now!
And now for the lows.
- I'm getting to the end of my college days.... I feel so bittersweet!
- I have this strange sensation that a few of my loved ones and friends are slowly drifting apart and nothing I do can stop the change. It's silly of me to even try stopping the ones who want to leave... they have better things to do than to stick around. Ah well... I love you all and remember that I'm always a shoulder you can lean on... if you even come back that is!
- My exams are approaching ever so slowly and steadily... Yikes! I need to buck up!
Hmmm.... sometimes I want nothing better than to run away from it all. But I know that solves nothing but only compounds to the problem... :) Ah well... I'll get through the tough times! I've done it before and seen worse! =D I'm made of sterner stuff!