It's been a while, hasn't it? Well... to be honest, I've been through quite a bit and finally, I can see the silver lining... the light ahead a really long tunnel. And I thank God for being there for me... for never letting go... for giving me the strength and showing me what wonderous things I was capable of doing!
Next month, I shall hopefully be rid of all the negativity and harmful influences that had plagued my existence for the past two years. I shall say goodbye to quite a number of people who had made sure to keep me down... to discourage me and tell me that I was not good enough. There is God... And he has truly worked his miracle through me. Will I ever get the courage required to talk about it? Will there be anyone out there who would listen? For now, I don't know.
But this much is certain. I'm at the threshold now. And I don't ever have to worry about what others would think if I were to be happy! For the first time in my life, I am happy without guilt or that light tinge of regret that often comes in uninvited with our happy moments mostly.
For all that had happened, I am glad I've become stronger. I'm glad I've matured. I'm glad I didn't lose anything of mine to people who never truly deserved it!
Soon.... I'll be totally free!
Next month, I shall hopefully be rid of all the negativity and harmful influences that had plagued my existence for the past two years. I shall say goodbye to quite a number of people who had made sure to keep me down... to discourage me and tell me that I was not good enough. There is God... And he has truly worked his miracle through me. Will I ever get the courage required to talk about it? Will there be anyone out there who would listen? For now, I don't know.
But this much is certain. I'm at the threshold now. And I don't ever have to worry about what others would think if I were to be happy! For the first time in my life, I am happy without guilt or that light tinge of regret that often comes in uninvited with our happy moments mostly.
For all that had happened, I am glad I've become stronger. I'm glad I've matured. I'm glad I didn't lose anything of mine to people who never truly deserved it!
Soon.... I'll be totally free!
welllll, I wish you all the very best of luck in this new phase of your life :P hope everything works out for the best and this unrestrained happy feeling lasts forever :)
ReplyDelete-Nile
Thank you, Meow Baggins! I'm keeping my chin up and the silver lining is almost within reach! :)
DeleteIt's sad that you've been feeling down for so long but I'm glad to read that you're feeling better. Best of luck, and I hope you keep feeling more and more awesome, remember that you truly deserve to be happy.
ReplyDeletePS, it's also really nice to see you posting again. i really enjoy reading about your life. :D
Anonymous, that's probably some of the sweetest words anybody's ever told me! Thank you! And yep! Finally getting there... to that happy place where everything is bright and warm!
DeleteKikyo, how are you now? It's June, and I'm thinking about you - wondering how you are?
ReplyDeleteI hope you happy and free to be you.
Face to the Sunshine, your very name gives me that happy optimistic feel we all need! And I'm sorry I was out of action for so long! You can bet there's more blogging left in me! :D
Delete"Strength does not come from winning
ReplyDeleteYour struggles develop your strength.
When you go through hardship
and decide not to surrender,
that is strength."
“A hard fall means a high bounce…if you’re made of the right material.”
I wish you're...
"Silence & Smile are two powerful tools. Smile is the way to solve many problems & Silence is the way to avoid many problem."