I'm ashamed to say that I have failed her. Having been through the throes of loneliness, I should have known its ill effects on souls better than anyone else! She looked up to me for support and I was not there for her. And yet, I cry like a craven fool saying that I am all alone! I have no right to crib anymore... I have no right to reach out when I did not hold on to the paw she reached out to me!
Tsuyoshi... I'm sorry for having left you alone when you needed me the most. I'm sorry for being the helpless twit that I am. I'm sorry I gave in to the inconsiderate calls of my family telling me you were just a dog... I'm sorry for not being the friend you truly deserved. And now that you've gone, probably sensing that you weren't needed here, I can see how alike we were.
Sometimes I wonder if I am truly needed anywhere. And I had one ray of hope where you told me through unspoken words that you did. And I.... let you go.
I'm sorry.... I truly am. I blame myself the most for having let this happen. And I pray you're better off somewhere else. But my most fervent prayers are for your return... But then again... I wonder if prayers ever have an effect! I've lost hope.... utterly so!