Wednesday, June 30, 2010

So.... out of place!

Have you ever had the feeling of suddenly, quite abruptly feeling out of place of sorts when you're in the midst of friends? I mean, one moment... you're all friendly and then suddenly, you get these vibes that maybe.... just maybe they're not that very into the entire "friendship with you" aspect.

Hmmm.... right now, I seem to be getting those sort of vibes from a few of my friends. It's kinda sad this way. Because, right now, I feel the loneliest I've ever been and for some reason, these few friends were the ones in whom I'm confided most of my secrets and apprehensions. Maybe that is why they inch away.... then I am to blame, ne? LOL... If you think you belong to this category, then I am very very sorry for having burdened you with my problems! :)

All in all.... right now is a very difficult time for me... but that's okay! I'll get through that all by myself, thank you! :)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Puppies are just like kids sometimes!

When they said that having a puppy is akin to having kids, they weren't kidding! Darling little Tsuyoshi is as energetic and endearing as a human tot and just as mischievous! He seems to have a special attachment to my toes and lunges at them for a nibble whenever he gets the chance! And right now, he's teaching me valuable lessons in parenting! Phew, I never ever thought I'd say this... but it's such fun minding after him! ;)

And right now, he's on time out, thanks to having brought in a dead "something"! It looked like fish but the smell seems to suggest something more sinister! The baka was happy biting into it and the moment he spotted Dad and me, he tried taking off with the weird piece of meat. It was hilarious seeing that tiny tyke trying to climb through the grill in the gate and when caught, looked at us with such doleful eyes, as though he seemed to suggest "would this cute face ever do anything wrong?"

But I did manage to resist his charms long enough to tell him off pretty sternly and surprise! surprise! He seems to understand the underlying intent of my words pretty clearly! And the meat was giving him a slight tummy ache. I managed to give him some water and he's feeling much better.... "back to nibbling my toes" better! But fighting those huge puppy dog eyes is beginning to get difficult. But I'll manage! ;)

Saturday, June 26, 2010

And now, news from the other side!

Am I the only person who seems to think it really weird calling pets one's personal property? I mean, here's this guy who sets his puppy on fire, beats it and leaves it for dead and all he gets is a slap on the wrist and that too for setting personal property on fire! I mean.... come on! That's a live creature we're talking about! What of the dignity and rights that a living being is deigned to possess? What of the liability of taking something as precious and irreplaceable as a life? Don't any of those things matter anymore? Well... on the plus side, the Law in North Carolina has been made a bit more stringent. But even then, shouldn't animals be more than just personal property?

Hmmph! Like people give a damn anyway, right?

In other news, one of my cousins has gotten through JNCASR's Integrated PhD programmes for Microbiology and this was all that took to have my mother tell me how much of a failure I shall be, having gotten through nowhere. She seems to feel for not having gone for a second child now. Something about the second one doing everything I didn't. Yeah, it hurt. But like that matters anymore! And so, I hope you guys have an awesome weekend as I spend mine in obscurity within my own house! D: Right now, Tsuyoshi and Tsume happen to be the only people who seem happy seeing me around. There, I said people.... not property! :D

Thursday, June 24, 2010


Isn't it the sweetest thing to wake up in the morning and to be greeted by the wagging of two tails and four eyes looking up at you with so much love? I think I'm finally in love.... truly in love! :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Cheers to you, my friend!

One of my friends has gotten placed in a really good university (better than mine! :D) for his PhD. I'd like to wish him all the very best and hopefully win a Nobel! :)

Oh, and as for me, I'm still hunting for something good... Maybe certain things are not for me... I am not hoping for anything right now... it's eerily fun standing in the way of a train that's thundering towards you. Your brain tells you to scoot but your legs refuse to move and your heart in the middle, does the flamenco!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Words of Gratitude

It has been quite the dismal week here. Many of my woes center around a thesis I was trying so hard to finish by the end of last week! And now, after having given it away, I feel so much lighter! It's now time to sit and confront most of the issues I'd swept under the bed! And I'm going to give it my best shot!

What's with the sudden enthusiasm, you ask? Well... that's what some good words of encouragement can do to you. This post is dedicated to that anonymous person who'd written a few well meaning words of courage in the comments to my previous post! Thank you! I might know you... or maybe not. But to know that I've had this sort of an impact on at least one person out there, it gives me hope! I'm going to give my best in all that I do henceforth! :D And if you're reading this, as I hope you are, I'm glad to have known you (if we have spoken before).

Thursday, June 17, 2010


It's almost like I'm beginning to reconsider a lot of things in life. Am I really good enough for most of my dreams? Should I just give up? Would anyone give a damn?

I'm sure most of the ones who know me wouldn't. This sucks... stuck in the bottom with no way up!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Happiness is a warm puppy!!

I've always been an avid animal lover and I've brought home more number of malnourished strays than I care to count, only to let them go when they're treated and healthy. It always saddned me that I wasn't able to hold onto them, thanks to my Mom and Granny screaming in fright everytime a puppy runs towards them wagging his/her tail.

Well... so far, I'd been the one to go towards the pups. This time, I had one come to me. It was well nigh one in the morning and I was breaking my head over contour integrals and matrix diagonalization when I swear I could hear a shrill bark. It sounded too young for the dog we have right now, another stray to whom we'd become family. I had to wait till morning to find out who the brave little warrior was. And to my surprise, I found myself opening my front doors to a wee little puppy. He must be just a few months old, just having weaned from his mother's milk and utterly lost. Infested with ticks, dirty and very very malnourished - that described the little one perfectly.

Well, half a day later, I should say he looks much better already! He drank an entire glass of milk and a few doggie treats to boot and has some of the natural brightness that hunger and suffering stole from him return! And it seems he considers us his family already! :)

So, give it up for Tsuyoshi - the newest member of our family, folks!

Tsuyoshi () in Japanese means "Strong". And he seems just that! The little one climbed a foot and a half high fence to come towards us once we were properly acquainted enough! And this is from a month old puppy who hadn't eaten in days! Oh, and our other dog, Tsume () seems to regard him with a bit of wariness. But she hasn't attacked him yet and wagged her tail when she sniffed him for the first time. Hopefully, they'll get along. But Tsume-chan is an intelligent canine, so I'm sure my worries are misplaced! :D

Psssst: If you didn't see the Japanese connection coming, I'm guessing you're new to the blog! Yay for 日本国! :D

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Happenings of the day

We humans are such a pathetic bunch! Temptation seems to find its way into every single heart one way or the other! I met up with a few friends at the mall today and managed to spend close to 600 bucks at one go! Ai Elbereth! Can I not find some contraption that will bonk me up the head everytime I eye something I can do well without but still crave to possess? Hmmm.... Ah well... I shalln't indulge any more, so there!

And one of my closest friends in getting married soon! She seems so happy and content, it makes me smile! We've been friends since school and she's actually taller than me! Today, we finally managed to coax her into getting her first lipstick! Can you believe it? She's twenty-three and gets her first lipstick now! My parents would write their assets off to God if I was like that! LOL

Ah well... but she finally did manage to get it and I'm sure she shall use it judiciously (read it shall sleep forever and ever more in some forgotten corner of her dresser!).

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Google Chrome.... is driving me MAD!!!!

I wonder how many of the people who read my blog do that on Google Chrome! I'm really for all this open minded software that Google gives out to people.... e-mail... docs... essential software packages... maps... really, I'm all for it. But somehow, I find the affection I had for Chrome slowly slipping away. I was really thrilled when I first started using it. It was neat, had a decent set of add-ons with it and the support it lent to all the sites that were run by Google was really amazing. And for some reason, Facebook (back when I was an avid social networking geek) would load properly only in Chrome.

But things are seeming to get a teensie bit downhill the past few days. I find most of the websites don't load and need to be refreshed or entered a gazillion times before the page loads! The same applies to all websites run by Google.

I'm wondering if I'm the only one having this problem or if it's a sort of network issue. If it is the latter, I hope Google looks into it at the earliest! Until then, I'll be switching over to Firefox (I still shall NOT turn to Internet Explorer, thank you!) till then. And pulling my hair out in frustration every time I wear down my "Enter" button on my keyboard to ruins!

Psssst: And some people just can't take the hint! When someone says they don't want to talk, they DON'T want to talk. Not exactly rocket science, right? Ah well... life sure is peachy at times!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Tough times ahead!

AAAAARGH!!!! This is all getting too complicated here! Things are so SO NOT going the way they should. If this keeps up, I'm afraid I'll be out on the streets before the year is done! Ah well.... it's at times like these that one should keep one's chin up and smile, right? So, Yep... bring it on, people! This girl's still got some spunk left in her! :D

And I sure home I get at least a single ray of hope before I've hit rock bottom! Hmmmm.... Hope.... it's a good thing.... the best of things, even!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

To be missed is the best of things!

I know I promised not to blog too much. But I need to get this out of my system if I ever hope to get back to normal. Today, I witnessed a little puppy die. Some careless driver ran his vehicle over his head in the night. Now this animal was one the countless homeless strays that Indian roads are infamous for. The thing that hits me the hardest is that when I was heading for the temple, I saw the little one sleeping in one corner, very much alive. And when I was heading back, I saw him dead... the accident must've happened just a few minutes before. I couldn't control my grief... I broke down.

Now, I understand people around me find it weird that I can remain resilient to grief (visibly atleast!) during the funeral of a relative but can so easily crumble at the sight of some random animal's death. I don't know... I guess I'm a loser if that's what people would like to believe it so. And frankly, I don't care. It's the saddest thing ever not to be missed... Not to be cried for in Death. It's just too sad to be nonchalant when one sees such sad things! And the thought that the puppy will not be sorely missed makes me sadder... I miss him... I hardly know him but I already miss him!

Little angel who flew to the skies today, I love you! And I'm a little consoled knowing you're in a better place... Rest in peace loved one!

P.S. If all of you who read this could send a little prayer for the countless homeless animals out there and do what you can to make their lives better, I'm sure the world would be a much better place! Love shown to a homeless animal is returned manifold! Believe me, I know!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Time out.... *GASP SPLUTTER GAAASP* TIME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

This Authoress is taking a break from it all.... for the time being.

It has been quite hectic the past few weeks! Food Poisoning....incessant puking.... deadlines.... thesis.... incomplete projects.....nonchalant advisors....friends confessing their love for another friend.... the drama.... the humor....I've seen and heard it all!

And I strongly believe I need some time to put things back in order. And so, if you don't hear from me for some time, it's just that I'm trying to do twenty odd things at the same time and somehow, blogging doesn't fit the list for now! I'm afraid if it will end up being the proverbial straw that broke the Camel's back!

So, until we meet again, have fun!