Overhaul time!

This is just a small reminder that my blog is going to look butt ugly for a few days as I shall be in the middle of an overhaul. So, don't freak out if you suddenly find three legged headers or nose-less post dividers loitering around! :D

I love making lists... do you?

I've just realized.... I love making lists. Lists of things to do, of dreams to achieve, of groceries to shop... the list is endless! :D

I guess I love the charm of noting things down on paper and when one has the world's cutest notepad at one's disposal, it cannot be helped. It's almost therapeutic! And with an impending Shopping trip on its way, It only makes sense that I make one.

 So, do you love lists just as much as I do?

I'm sooooooooooo out of Hoppy right now!

Aaaaaaah.... I have no idea what's wrong with me but these days, this picture below surmises how I'm feeling most of the time!

I feel like a balloon that's having the air let out ever so slowly.... with that distinctive "squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" added for good effect! I can't seem to find the strength to do almost anything right now! Hopefully, I'll be on my feet soon enough! And if you guys have any idea how I can get my energy back sooner, do share it with me, ne? :)

P.S. That bunny's cute! :D

Of itchy faces and boils that itch.

I have a really huge boil along the inner lash line of my eye. And god knows how it got there! But I'm really averse to show this to the family because they'll think I'm putting something to my face that's causing a break out. Kinda strange for a person who hasn't purchased Talcum Powder for years now!And to make matters worse, my face looks like that of a pubescent teenager! And it itches so much!

 And I'm really wondering if I should go get that facial everybody's been goading me to get! Why can't pimples and boils just be? We could reach an agreement! Why do they have to itch so much and why should my face turn almost red after a couple of scratches? What is wrong with the world?! T_T

I'm aliiiiiiive! I'm aliiiiiiiiive!

So much has happened in the short time that I had been away from the blogsphere!

My company has laid off four people in a row!

People have been revealed to be the sort that they weren't at first sight. Elaboration shall be provided in the subsequent posts! :P

I have lost my HDD and all the data within to the fey demons of Hell!

I am so behind schedule as far as PhD preparation is concerned but am still preparing more than what I did last year!

I haven't gone clothes or stationery shopping for the longest time.... and I need new clothes. I'm beginning to look like Oliver Twist from Fagin's lair!

All in all, I'm alive.... and well.... for now! Thanks for wondering! :D

I'm back!

After a fortnight of no connection with the Internet, I am finally back! And it was a liberating experience, travelling around with the entire family, hopping from one temple to another.... resting with relatives... And now, I wonder if I was ever missed!

I just want to...... do things.... and be silly.... and AAARGH!!!!

Tomorrow, I leave for Bangalore... It's to attend yet another PhD interview and I guess I've stopped worrying about getting through or not... What will happen will happen. And I truly wish I could get away from it all for a few months. You know... like go hiking into the Silent Valley... or temple hopping in the middle of the night... or enter a Stationery shop feel the Zen that is Stationery until they kick me out... None of this Physics-shmysics!

I know a few of those souls out there are probably gasping in disbelief or nodding their heads in knowing disappointment. I'm sorry folks! My cuckoos have finally flown the nest and right now, I feel like doing things I've never done before.... like...

• Going on an expedition of some sorts.... you know... not quite the Indiana Jones types. But still, be a part of an Archeological expedition? Dig into the past? Find pieces of Time still stuck on stone walls and arcane coins? That type of thing.
  
  
• Makeup shopping. Yep. You heard it right! I know I don't tend to go overboard as far as face paint is concerned! Heck... I'm probably dumb as a door knob as far as making-up of the face goes.... Making up facts and scaring the heebidibajeebies of people? Yep... I'm an expert! I guess I've finally realized I'm a *cue gasp and dramatic silence* girl! And I tend to harbor silly girly dreams within myself. About time I indulged myself, ne?
  
  
• Write like there's no tomorrow. And this involves all sorts of literary shazaam! Prose, Poetry, random warbling... everything. I wish I could express all those things I see and feel around me into beautiful and eternal words that will move people for ages to come! Alright.... that's a little too far-fetched. But at least be able to show the kids in my street, when I'm an octogenarian, with one foot in my grave, my works.
  
  

That's it for now.... but somehow, right now, I cannot seem to be able to do any of these! Ah well... I'll find some way or the other! ;)

Exams... Gintama....funny!.... EXAMS!!!!

Ah.... I've my finals tomorrow and many might wonder what I'm doing, writing a blog post when I ought to be slogging my hiney off, trying to get a decent grade! Well... I'm just not feeling inspired enough!

Aaaaah... How I wish I was surrounded by people from Gintama... it would be so.... uplifting and stimulating! Running around helping people with odd jobs... being silly and still being accepted! The numerous puns nobody would understand and yet be funny! The teensie life lessons that one could learn! Oh.... and the really hot guys from Yorozu-ya, Shinsengumi and the Juoi faction! *Siiiiiiiiigh* Life's so cruel at times! :S

LOL... and yes, I've finally lost my head! I shall now go and try to cram in as much Titanium and Nano magnets into my feeble cranium as I can!

And hope everybody's having an awesome summer out there! What're your plans for the holidays, people? Let me know! =D

Finally!

Aaaaaaaaah..... finally, my life makes perfect sense once again! Up is Up. Down is Down. And I'm still little old almost invisible wittle me! And I love it this way.. I guess! :D

Now to tackle those little buggers one at a time! :)

The P and the P

Now that I have reached the middle of the dreaded early twenties, I find myself in quite the predicament! On one side, people seem to tell me that this is the prime time of my life and that I should enjoy all that life brings me. On the other side, some others tell me that it is time I gave marriage and starting a family some serious thought! And in the midst of it all, I am buried under the larges pile up as far as work is concerned! It's during times like these that you start thinking differently.

Like for instance, there's no need to be worried about the diverging paths of marriage and higher studies as far as I am concerned. Why do you ask? Because both are elementarily the same! Don't believe me? Hmmm... let me elucidate!

Whether one is hoping for a PhD or a Purushan (husband in Tamil), one is dealing with the same thing.

• Both start with a P. (duh! I know! Let's go from the basics, people!)


• Both of them are worth it only if one gets it the way one wants. Imagine trying for Phd in Particle Physics and being forced to do it in Crystallography! Imagine trying for a Banker husband and getting a creative photographer!


• Both of them are life long commitments!


• The quality of the environment where both are based from is just as important.


• Both of them can give us the highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows!
  


• One gets the additional P's from the primary P's. Purushan gives Pullai (kids) while PhD gives Postdoc! But it isn't mandatory that one leads to the other!

There you have it... Though there are differences as well, we shalln't dwell in them... for now.

Seriously.... wtf?!

I have to admit... the Internet is one weird place! And with Google thrown into the picture, it's almost surreal! It's almost like there are no questions that haven't been asked before! (except perhaps some obscure book on Metallurgy... but that could be because I'm not searching too hard!)
Well, why am I at awe all of a sudden, having had the Internet at my disposal for longer than I care to remember? Well... it's a little silly, actually.

I remember a time when there were no DTH services... no hidden charges for cable channels... a time when I was the happiest (Animax.... my darling Animax! T__T). And at that time, they had shown this really weird but good (it was good because it was weird! :P) sci-fi show. I had long since forgotten its name and remember just bits and pieces of it... (the blue lady with the phallic head just refuses to leave my mind, for some weird reason!)

And suddenly, I wanted to know what that show was named. The problem, I didn't know anything about the show... not the names of the characters, the actors who played the parts... zilch! The only thing I remember vivdly is that the ship in which they travel was a live thing. And so, I did a Google search typing "ship that is alive"... I was feeling like a total twat when I was doing it. I mean... anyone who sees me thus is probably going to think I've lost my marbles!

And voila! I needn't worry. Someone had obviously had the same doubt before me and had asked the question! And strangely, the question was phrased exactly how I had pictured my query to sound like! "Which sci-fi show has a ship that is alive?"

Can you believe it?! :D And so, thanks to that good soul, I now know the name of that show.... not that knowing it gives added meaning to my life... but what the heck!

P.S. I suck at conversations! I just managed to drive away a classmate on Chat thanks to my apathetic replies ! *sigh* I lead a sad... sad life!

P.P.S. if anyone's wondering what show I was refering to, it's called "Farscape". Heard of it? Hmmmm? Hmmmmm? Hmmmmmmm?

iPod's been fixed!

Before people start marching to my house with torches and stakes, claiming I have been cruel to my iPod, robbing it of some of the joys of procreation (okay, that sounds weird!), I wish to make myself clear! When I mean have my iPod 'fixed, I mean I have finally gotten a replacement for my iPod head phones. And I am just beginning to realize how much I missed listening to music most people don't understand. (Welsh, Japanese, Whale songs... you know.... the usual!) All is well in my land once more! Yay... Anime Music, here I come!

I'm gonna listen to lots of music now, folks! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!

Last semester.... is finally here!

My last semester starts tomorrow... and understandably, I'm a little nervous today. It could be due to the fact that this would be the first time that I'm doing some serious project work... And also due to the fact that... well... a lot is riding on this last few months of Graduation. Aaargh... 2009 was all wrong in so many levels! I got onto the wrong side of certain influential people for absolutely no fault of mine... and to make it worse, I still have an entire semester left before I can get out of their hairs... or they out of mine (Einstein's relativity works even at social settings!).

Ah... I've finally managed to seriously start my GATE preparation. And for all those who don't know, GATE is my ticket out of so many drab and mundane things that I'm having to deal with right now! And for the love of all things Holy, I'm hoping of going out of the state to begin with... and if possible, out of the country. But judging from the kind of luck I seem to be blessed with, I'm very doubtful if any of this shall happen. Ah well... I can only give my very best and hope everything else falls into place! Wish me luck folks! =D

From a friend in need to a friend indeed!

This post is dedicated to one of the most loved people in my life. And this is my way of saying thank you to him.

He might not have been the most conventional of friends but for the past few weeks, has been with me as I went through some really tough times. We never ever thought we'd be friends for he was from a different level altogether! Heck! I didn't even think we'd be socializing thus! I'm sure there was an animosity between the two of us at the beginning and now, as we sit beside each other, I realize that it was nothing but an instinctive defensive tactic that we both practiced so as to not get hurt... And well...now, I'm glad that we took the time to approach each other. For had it not been so, I would have lost out on such a wonderful friend! I know he puts up with my nonstop badgering and does nothing to retaliate as I spew subtly, a hint of discomfort and annoyance onto him. And that has taught me such valuable lessons on patience and tolerance. I wish he could see this and know how blessed and truly honoured I feel to call him my buddy! =D

Lee, thanks for being there! =)

Famous?.... So what?!

People are really... really funny creatures underneath all this facade of sophistication and suave. And I mean it in an endearing sense of the word!

The other day(quite a long time ago, actually!), I was out at the Mall to meet up with a few of my friends. It was one of those posh areas where most of the rich and famous came to do their shopping needs. And well, as luck would have it, a really famous singer was there shopping with his family. I shalln't say who he is but just so people get the idea, his songs are really famous these days and well, he comes from a musical family.

I am a person who believes in the concept that celebrities are human beings as well and that to adulate them to the level of mobbing them in public only show how silly we 'not famous ones' can get. And so, as soon as I saw him looking in my direction, I gave a small smile and turned away to do whatever I was doing before I had spotted me. And then, something really out of the ordinary happened. He went past my group not once... but thrice to see if anyone in our group would recognize him and go talk to him. It was a little sad when none of us actually did anything out of the ordinary and he walked away.

It set me thinking. Could it be possible that certain celebrities find it vulnerable not being recognized? Do they really mean it when they say it is a pain being recognized and surrounded by adoring fans? Well... from the action of our singer celeb here, it seems to be the case! =D

Hmmmmm.....

Hello there folks! It hasn't been long ne! But anyway... I just dropped in to say Hi... and well...there are a lot of things running around in my head at the moment. I'm at a particular crossroad in my life and I'm not even sure where the divergent paths shall lead me let alone having to choose one of the many roads!

Aaaargh... if only I could reach forward by a few years and know what would happen... I could easily resign myself to what I see... or could I?

And I'm beginning to really believe that my intuition is a very strong thing! I cannot explain what I mean by this... just that somehow, I feel a distinct connection with what is to happen... and that I am to a certain extent, able to realize the future... I know I'm making no sense... Ah forget it!

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Something good always happens out of everything... This is something I've come to believe very strongly in these days!

I find it makes life all the more bearable and in the long run, a very happy experience... ne?

If anybody out there is wondering why I am waxing philosophically thus, I'll tell you...

I am a very absent minded person in reality... I have walked into poles and walls when I was young (and I still do!). The very reason why I had lost a lot of valuable items in my life was because I've been absent minded... and for some reason, this makes me seem very aloof to people outside my head. I understand that I am a bit difficult to get along with... and well, if it is any consolation to the people I know, I do not do any of the things you might think to be hurtful intentionally.... I'm a baka as I am. I guess there aren't many people out there who can accept me for who I really.... truly am. But hey! Fine with me... I'm used to this kind of a feeling. =D

Anyway.... I had been checking my mail yesterday and horror of horrors! The GATE application I had sent has been earmarked because the photo I had sent was not of the best quality... well... since I had sent the same photo to TIFR and they didn't seem to have a problem with it, I thought I'd stick to that.

They had sent the mail five days ago. But I have no idea what happened, I had received it only yesterday. And the URL they had given me for uploading a better photo would expire that night... that very night that I had seen it for the first time! Rest assured... there was pandemonium in the house with accusations aplenty thrown in my direction that I hadn't been attentive enough the first time... wringing of hands in exasperation as I tried explaining that I hadn't seen this mail the last time I'd signed in.... all to no avail. Finally, I managed to get a proper photograph with the proper pixel size and resolution and uploaded it around nine in the night. And today, I try that URL and it shows a message telling me it had expired and that I could do nothing...

Phew! Boy oh boy! Instead of cursing the higher power for giving me such unwanted anxieties in the last minute (including some really tensed conversations with my parents ;P), I am thankful that I had seen the mail when I had... Imagine the horror if I had seen it today! *shudder* GATE is my only hope right now... and if I wasn't even allowed to try it, I don't know how I'd feel... :(

Ah well...I just hope all my classmates who had applied haven't faced such problems. For once, I hope nobody's been as flaky as I was! ;)

*The author is laughing her butt off and so cannot insert a Title right now.. so, insert your own title here!*

It has been quite a week here... what with Lab and a nut for a professor... it was at the least amusing at times but mostly irritating!

We have Dr. Kappochino (pun heavily intended!) who is in charge of Lab sessions for the Second year Masters students (that means us). And we are slowly beginning to wonder and gape with astonishment as to how in the name of the "Holy Plunger that the Great Balooga uses", she got her PhD.!

I mean.... come on! It doesn't take an IQ of 140 to figure that the metal Copper will not melt at 110°C! I mean... if it did, we wouldn't be seeing so many metal furnaces around.... would we? Of course, the melting point changes with variation in the atmospheric pressure, but in a normal environment where the butt of your experiment is open to the elements, I guess it is relatively safe you won't end up with copper goo when you heat it up to 110°C!

And for some reason, I think she hates me from the core of her rotten and black organ that in no way resembles a heart! And this particular hypothesis is strongly supported by evidences where she refuses to sign my lab observations stating I was absent for one friggin' class! Well.... Screw you, bitch!

But seriously.... how can she be taken seriously when I know how she got so badly screwed by her Research Guide who thought dancing monkeys with bananas in their assholes could get their PhD's before she could! Ah well....

I've begun to realize just what a small place my Department is. I met with a friend who's escaped (read graduated) from the Department last year and is now in a better place (I shall not mention where), who's told me how much credentials these bozos hold outside the department. And in a way it makes sense! No professor worth their pinch of salt would actually lord over their students in such an ostentatious manner unless they were worth shit outside their petty realm!

And to this hoard, add a professor who made his research student a scapegoat for a research paper he stole word by word out of a poor bloke from Stanford and how he asks us not to plagiarize for our seminars! BWAHAHAHAHA! Oh! And another bloke who bought his research student her PhD and just made her sit there... probably being his secretary for six friggin' long years!

Aaaaaand the head of them all who's a pretty nice guy underneath... but well... you know.... you just can't like him! He's as enjoyable as that boil you got on your hiney the last time you went out for a sunbath!

And these asstards expect us to take them seriously.... Surely you must jest, Dr. what's-his-face!

But having said all of this, I must say there are still a handful of faculty left in my department who still hold some amount of respect in my sight. It just pains me to see those few good and worthy souls trapped in the middle of this circus!

To add to this pandemonium, I have a bunch of total Dickheads for classmates (except a few genuinely nice people!)... wait... they can't be dickheads... that would make them sensitive! Nope... they are more like the feces that leaves your asshole when you're constipated! Yep.... that's more like them! They'll smile at you and smile at you and smile at you while they think of a way to hack your guts open so they can be done with you. Now, I don't say that everybody should like me and treat me gently.... Heck, hate me? Be my guest, fella! But please.... have the balls to do it to my face! I wasn't born yesterday and all that synthetic smile's making your butt ugly face look botoxed!

And if some of those idiots think that hogging the system just so I can't code and will have to face the 'wrath of Dr. Kappochino' again... get a life! How hard is it to source the software out and load it in my PC... in my room.... where I can code while listening to LP..... singing out loud.... without having to worry about when the HOD (a.k.a. the boil in the butt) would drop in and literally punch my headlights in for singing in the Lab? Now.... the same people, who boast on being the class-toppers (give them the Telephone Directory and they'll tell it back to you in an hour... extension codes and all! Just the thing needed for creative research!) don't know what 1 mole of a substance is!

Psssst: Dr. Kappochino hopes to get us screwed for not completing MATLAB on time! I think I wet myself from laughing too hard!

And so.... it begins!

It's that time of the year again.... the time when application forms for various institutes are out and it's almost too late to start preparations for the various exams. Yeah well... I'm starting my preparations now and I'm sure it would've been better if I'd started earlier. But as the saying goes, "Better late than never!".... right? *echoing silence* -_-;

As usual, this means there will be a slowdown on the blog updates (As if they were on time to begin with... *ahemahem*), but have heart! I'll make sure I give a detailed account on my preparations for the exams here. And if I ever need some amount of encouragement, I'll have my wonderful readers to turn to..... right?........... *silence.... and random lint ball*

Oooookay..... >_>.....<_<.......-__-;;;

Gentlemen still exist! *le GASP*

It sucks sometimes... yep.... just like that.

Don't you hate it when you have so much fun one weekend, staying over with friends and then suddenly, when the weekend's over, you're all alone and it's miserable to think that the same place was such a wonderful place to be in just a while ago? Well.... if you do, welcome to the "morning-after-the-party" club! You shall receive your dossier and complimentary bath towels in counter number 2!

I had stayed over at one of my Best friend's place. With no parental supervisions and a house full of early twenty somethings, it is pardonable to assume things could've gotten out of hands. Especially when some of the early twenty somethings are guys! But this is where the assumptions cease to be pardonable, people!

Last weekend, I managed to meet some of the most exceptional guys I've ever known in my life! And to think that people like them even exist in today's society is news to me!

Wherever I've been to, I've met guys who think a girl smiling at them automatically means that the girl wants to marry him and have his numerous progeny without a doubt marring her brain! But thankfully, I've been friends (and still am) with a few countable individuals who're what one would call 'guys any girl would feel safe with in the middle of the night in their tank-tops and shorts!' or 'bodyguards'! :P (I know certain people will understand what this means!)

This post goes out to all those guys who're gentlemen when it matters! And all the others out there who think they're being decent just because they seem like it and nobody can see what's running around in their minds, GET A LIFE! This includes all those asstards who think passing pseudo-witty comments and other sexual innuendos at any mediocre-to-goodlooking girl that passes them by is actually a cool thing to do! I mean... haven't they left their tweens yet?!

I am so proud of the guys I spent the weekend with. And I hope I find someone just like them when I indeed look for love (if and when...) And somehow, it scares me when I see the kind of thought process that goes through my family (my relatives mostly)!

Oh Gentleman in shining armour... whereforth art thou?!